Believe and Faith

Speeding?Weird, i am speeding again, along with a proton, tail-gating people(which i hate it so much when people did it on me). I usually speed when there are less cars in the road...... but not this time around. He flashes the car in front of me that blocked our way, and i did the same, weird. Of course, you know buatan Malaysia, how to fight with a Japan made product even the machine is more then 10 years...

If you wonder why people like speeding, its not hard to get the answer. Basically speeding can give you a sense of "high", pumping adrenaline to your whole body. As for people with more "testestrone", basically they just want to win, win everybody, like the Ah Bengs that drive Proton with the cheap LED light...... Big Eksos, they got no sense of beauty at all by modifying their car with their own bad taste. If you got offended by me, then most probably you are one of them. Else, you will agree on what i've said.

Back to the point, why am i speeding again. Its even worst than last time i drive. There are always some reasons which i cant list them down here... I am rebellious, really i am if you know me long enough. Oh, not to forget, speeding reduce some distress as well : ). Which is a good thing for you little gals and guys. Stress, i've been in stress-pool recently. Really, the problems are like...... all coming out at once and they strangle me, but i hope they end at once. So sometimes its nice to leave me alone, and i need more space for myself and doing the things that i like.

I asked a few people about me recently. They give me all different type of answers. Some good some bad, some apply some are not even me when they are saying...gosh. And i found out that feedbacks on me change according to the different circle of friends. The friends that i know since secondry school which talk from time to time. Some are the friends i know more the first or second year in college, and some are those they i know from business department, and some are my best friends. The commnets they gave untill i also dun know who i am already sometimes.

Emotions are like Yo-Yo these few days, up and down, back to the top again and fall to the bottom again. I found myself stuffing my stomach with more and more food, i think this is a sickness which i forget what is it but perhaps someone can tell me(YO!!!, Especially the psychology students out there, sure got some beautiful term for me right? Hehe, no offence). Beside eating and speeding, i am facing the screen longer than facing people. I hope i will not make a U-turn back to my Form 3 and 4 behaviour this time...

Like what my aunt said, i am a question child, cause i ask a lot from her, this and that and everything. But i know is a good thing that she said i am finding myself, searching the path.

Not forget to mentioned, if you happened to bump into my site, which i doubt it. Thanks for everything you did for me in Hong Kong. I learned a lot from the things you told me although some i dont agree on it. I will pay you back the so called " investment".

Believe and faith is what i must have now. Besides that, disipline. Good luck for you Yong Jia. Muy Bien, thats all. 兵来将挡，水来土淹。That is what i always believe.

Please consult your parents if you want to read this passage! Dont read if you are those that can get offended easily!

Pissed to the max! Feel like punching the sandbags, i am going to get one, because i am so damn fucking pissed. Dont ask me to do things if you still want to complain so fucking much. Come out with a solution, not fucking speaking so fucking loud to me. I damn fucking hate people speaks so loud to me. My ears cannot stand loud voice, my heart beat will increase rapidly, no choice, thats me. To avoid the burn, say it nicely. Else someone will commit crime. So speak nicely and politely. I tried but i cant , i am so sorry that you are down again. Nothing can chnage this, so i suggest you to step back , think twice before you talk to me, else you will feel the fucking burn from me. I am not joking, i am not. The way of communication between you and me , totally fucking different but i dont know why. Weird, so long already but still the same.

He told me to do this and you told me that he did not told me about it. I jod down all the details by myself from him talking thru phone, but you said i am wrong, he said that but not this to you. Pathetic! How pathetic is that, Gosh, Fraking pissed off. so, money is not a problem, i can pay you back the amount of money if you want but you dont want it so its fine, but dont worry, i will pay you back with it. Where on earth....Yong Jia, you are digging your own fresh grave if you are still so steam after 15 minutes.... But yong jia said, its so fucking hard to calm down. Where got such people in the world...OMG.

Only people like that can create these fucking problems to the fucking world.

How long edi since i've become so hot temper just because of such small matter. Just because of a small fucking matter and i am so fucking pissed off. But who cares....no one cares, no one give a fucking damn, a fucking care, welcome to the world. Well come to the reality fucking world, yeah! its a fucked up world! And thats life.

Godspeed!

Have a debate/argument with my someone. I know i am not perfect, but i know what i am doing. Just wanted them to know whats my feeliings and all. I know i do disappointed them, but sometimes you just dont have the strenght to do it better. Maybe it is time for a change. Or i am just giving myself some excuses for not doing better, or plain laziness? Well, i know myself, the last one consists most of the reason.

Arg, felt so helpless and hopeless, can't help. Stop procastinating would be a good idea, do it straight away and darn, you are analysing wayyyyy to much on everything. Is a fuck up day. Really !! so fucking hate it.

Worst still, can you imagine disapointing yourself? Man, work on it so much but the outcome is not what you want, is it because of the stupidity? No, i am kinda smart, but why it happens, only myself know.

Anyway, there are always chnaces, it depends on, how are you going to work on it. I dont want to make things wrong and start missing a gal, its just the same like what we are facing.

A gal asked me, " is it because of your study habit that need a chnage"? Because i promised myself to do the things that i wanted to do right away and stop analyzing, so i straight away chnage my study habit. It do have a good start, so i hope i will continue to do so.

I am not holding back this time, i am on the run. Wish me godspeed.

Untitled.

In this world all of our sins are simple
We choose death over innocent life
And in this world it's not our money that's evil
It's the one's who choose it over life
And in my heart I cannot believe in this murder
And I will not be fed by the lies
Or the life that's created just to be murdered
It's murder

No matter how hard they try and
No matter how loud they cry
They can't
Buy their way into heaven
No matter how hard they try and
No matter how high they climb up the ladder
They won't reach up into heaven

And they can't see
The innocent lives
The pointless suffering
And in my heart I wanna undo all this murder
And give back their innocent life
Open cages and stop their luxurious murder
It's murder

Something Happened!

Well, something happened when i am in hong kong and it troubles me. Serious, mentally especially. Just want to say xxxx me for letting that thing happened.If i picked up the phone and ....arggg...stupid me. And i am freaking sure that i need to explain a lot when i am back, and i might lose THE CHANCE. This might happeend cuz he sounded serious...man.

As predicted, just that i dont want to face the truth a few days before. So i din think about it and i din seek for the answers. Now its comming out and i got to solve it quick. REAL QUICK.

11th day and will be back to Malaysia soon!

This is the 11th days i've been in Hong Kong and its a superb nice trip.