Time after time.

So, things din work out for me. Anyway, its not sad thou, at least its a new beginning for me. Exams soon, goona work for it edi after some entertainment. So, at least i take a short to get over it. I might be a good thing as well at least our thinking was were kinda different. a bit contradicting right, nay, dun worry.

So mk got a new bf she said, feel good for her. HAha, congrats yeah, dun forget to treat us dinner one day.

am going for kung fu hastle later on, someone told me that he want to intro some gals to me because he said that i am wayyyyyyyy to good to handle them, as in female specimen, damn it. But anyway, i will still go because they bought my tickets.

no, yes, no , yes, time is passing by me again . its the end of the semester soon, kinda fast thou dun you think so? I left one subject for my transfer to UQ, hope to go over there real soon after sometime of working in dad's company, to get some extra cash for myself. No i am no going to spend them all thsi time. no, i am not, i will syve a portion of them for myself, Yes, myself, to buy me a present, i am ot treating myself well these days by not giving some positive reinforcement for myself, yes, anything, maybe a mp3 player this time depends on the money that i got.

ok, time for the end, everybody take care.

Merry Christmas

Wishes everybody Merry christmas. :)

Hope i can success as well.

The usage of "tiu"

I copy this down from frindster because its funny and make me laugh like hell. Enjoy :P


Do yOu know thIs wOrd ? Tiu...........!!!!! Perhaps one of the most interesting and colourful words in Cantonese today is the word "TIU" It is onemagical word which just by the sound candescribe pleasure, hate and love. "TIU" falls into many grammatical categories. It can be used asa verb both transitive (eg. Goh tiued Irene) and intransitive (eg. Irene was tiued by Goh) It can be a noun (eg. Goh doesn't give a tiu about Irene) or an adverb (Irene is te-wing beautiful) It should be obvious by now that there are not many words asversatile as the word "TIU" Besides its sexualconnotation, this lovely word can be used todescribe many situations: *Fraud - Ngor bei yantiu chor *Dismay - Tiu nia ma hai *Trouble - Leichii tiu lor *Aggression - Tiu kow lei *Passive -Tiungor *Confusion - Tiu mat chat? *Difficulty - Tiu,ngchat meng ah... *Despair - Lei bei yan tiu lorr*Philosophical - Mm lan tiu ar.. *Religious - Omitoh fut, tiu *Incompetence - Oh, tiu lo*Displeasure -Tiu, faat sang meh yeh si ah?? *Laziness - Tiu leisei lan hai *Rebellion - Tiu chart hoi! *Direction -Mart chart tiu tei fong ah??? *The mind reallyboggles at the many creative uses. How couldanyone be offended when you say theword "TIU"?(Use it in your daily speech - it adds to yourPRESTIGE!)

dada

Ah, test for QBM ! soon, i hate maths....why levin, take this test for me come on. well anyway. argg, this is not a good semester for me. Kinda stresss, but still going to work out of it.

Some Bastard

Got to know a girl today, she is not hot mommas or sexy like hell that type, woo, but damn, she is gorgeous. Borrow some notes from her, i think i should use some pick up lines before approacing a girl with those nonsense. At least i should say, "Hey,we might be laughing together today next year." oh well, i dont know whether it works or not. AT least some people like MK, BT, PY, Ian and the people in my list should give me some......ideas?


How do you feel when someone say hi to you by saying " hey, sorchai" everytime he met you? Some people might said, " just let him lor" or "dun care about him" or "aiya, he is joking only lar" or " who cares". But i am telling you, firstly i dont mind, but untill you annoyed, you are in deep shit. Dont ever tell me you dont like me or what, because i might have the same feeling like you do. But of course, you can make comments on me, but i dont give a damn. But friednly comment is acceptable :). You hear that Keith? Yea, you damn idiot.

You are the first idiot that make me kinda...mad. If is not Xaviz stoping me at that time, you nose , for sure, will bleed. Anyway, i will just forget about it. You r breaking my record you idiot for not showing anger.


Anyway, went PM to day, bought 6 cds(Good Charlotte, Switchfoot,Velvet Revolver,Three Days Grace, The Killers and Alter Bridge). All good bands, and all are my favorite. I dont know that Pirated Cds got these kinda good taste as well. Feel damn good because the first album that i am listening right now(the chronicle of live and death), is just SUPERB.


Well, life is full of ups and downs, but i LOVE it anyway.( i want the truth from you, give me the truth even if its hurts me, i know that this will break me, and this will make me cry, but you must say whats you on your mind.)

LALALA

Yes, finally. Well, long time huh? But it the right time for a blog.

I always believe that if you treat others good, so others will do. And i think that if someone dont know about something, you can teach them, educate them on how to finish the task, or how to avoid the same mistakes again, unless they were all damn fucking stupid. Yeah, nay?

By scolding, i dont think the one who get scolded will actually notice what they did wrongly. This was becuase he or she actually tot that his or her way was right. By showing your temper, not only you wouldnt benefit from that scolding, but the one who get scolded will actually think" hey, fuck you man, why r u scolding me, i did nothing wrong". It will low down the efficiency and effectiveness.Also, by showing your temper, it will increase your heart beating rate, increase your pulse, your blood pressure will rise, some kinda of acid will be released from your body too. So, talk to them, teach them, and be patient. Just imagine someone shouting at you, how would you feel? Happy ? yeah, right. Poeple are actually laughing at you when you are shouting on someone or angry on something. So just act like a human instead of acting like a dog with some diseases.

Ok, for those who got scolded, not matter wat, or even with that idiot's saliva on your face, if you did something wrong, just admit it and stop acting like you did nothing wrong. Not really tough for you to admit you made mistakes right? By admitting your faults, i will be the first one to salute you because you acted like a man, like an adult. So please dont ever argue over your mistakes if you know that you've made mistakes. Unless you really think that you r right, so why not give it a try and fight for it? You got nothing to lose, more or less, you will only got fired, Ok, the last part was a joke, ignored it, just try to be flexible when you face these kind of situation.

Ok, for now, for those future candidates that will kena from me, just act yourself like my dog. Yeah, when i scold him, he will stay and keep quiet because he knew that he did something wrong, bitting shoes, destroying the flower pots, drinking the pond water, acting like a big bully, ran out from the house when i open the main gate, searching for lizards and killing them by breaking their bones, entering to my house, pee and poo everywhere, always looking for a fight with my neighbours dogs(by bitting of peoples ears), ravage the garden, not finishing the dog's food, barks at my cousins.....gosh. Yeah, just act like you know your mistakes and i will let you go, such an easy task right? Even my dog knew that.


Ok, thats a joke, forget it. Just try to be flexible, and thats all that i want to tell.

oh yeah, rooney scored. Keep it on.

I cant get away, but i am trying.

You are deep inside of me,
You changed my life so it seems,
I never felt alone untill i met you,
Some friends said that i've chnaged,
I am alright on my own,
Untill i met you,
Did i lost myself?
i dont know, but
You are deep inside of me.

I am wondering, how i got here,
Causes it seems somehow i am stuck in the mire
i needed this more then i know....
i'm gonna live forever(i might)
I am so damn clever(maybe la)
But there's a demon in my head started playing around(you)
but i know myself
i will still hold my breath
UNTILL IT'S MROE THEN I CAN TAKE....or i can bare
I write everything down except what's on my mind(yeah, right)
really i try to keep myself awake,
but still
i am drowing for of you,
Know whats my greatest fear?
Is you, and i am afraid that i will never get back out,
can you wake me up?
Please, bang my head, and let me wake up.
Thanks a lot.

I go crazy when i walk into your room,
Phone calls ring, and your voice is desire,
even with just some messages or text,
the clock is bleeding just because of me,
But watever it takes,
watever it happens,
Is it time to let you go?
Time for me to back off?
Am i better off without you(i dont know)?
Now, i can feel the changing weather
while alone along that sideroad
i am being told by the wind and the ghost,
is time to let go
to continue your own journey,
to look for some others,
i am getting over.

But when i am getting through the doors,
if i see your face once more,
and when you bloomed like a rose,
you will know that i cant ignore(yeah, i cant)
I want it so hard but, i cant break thru
Why cant i get the chemicals in?
Why?
The city is dying(at least for me)
i wont be happy without you around, and you know that.


ahhhhhh, too much too much.

Vindicated(DC)

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so wel
lI am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clearLike the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that
So turnUp the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

Manchester United

Finally, it was a cheer for us, Man Utd Fans., me as well. It was so long ago that this team cheer me up. Been down for a few days, well, i wont tell you the reason of course :). The first spot kick, scored by Nistelrooy, one of my favorite star and the second scored by Wayne Rooney(soon to become my favorite star as well). well, from here, you can know that i am not an Arseanal suppoter in every ways, the reason is simple, because i dun like them and i like Man Utd. I want to thanks Man Utd for ending ARsene wenger 49 unbeaten record, thanks for the goals, that make me real excited, and last but not least, to cheer me up. YES.

congrats to Man Utd fans out there,Glory glory man utd, glory glory man utd. Keep on marching.

Today someone really got my nerves, he was so damn rude, i nearly give a punch on his face. I went to ADP today to met up some friends and just by the time i wanted to walk down the stairs, i saw this buffulo, so i decided to say "heiooi". He shouted at me(which really pissed me off) with 2 words "sorchai", nvd, i can tahan, for the second time after i din bother what he said, he kicked my leg. My face turn really bad and i asked something. Luckily, someone stopped me. Well, damn i am like what the....i said hi to you and you talk to me like this, being so rude and kicked me someone(alto i think he was notdoing that purposely, but still, you talk to people like that?come on, how old r u 21? 22?).
the punch was nearly nearly close.

Anyway....cheers for man utd fans.

Control!!

Well well well, went for a jog, but, how come i still feel the same? Nothing's chnage, is it because of the results still affecting me? Or she is still the major reason? well, i think she is the one. Mood swing never happen to me b4, but its happening recently, seriously i think is because of her.

Well, 3 more weeks to go for my midterm, i must do well. I want things ot be in my control because thats the thing i want to achieve. Uncertainty just doenst make me feel good about it.This is a promise to myself, but this time i hope the effort that i put into will not be a waste, cuz i dun feel good with that, is not because i am afraid to lose, just that i dun like the kind of feelings, cuz i dun enjoy it. But well, we shall see what will happen.

Appeal!!

Damn, wat the, i got my result for MGT, expected to be a distinction, now, it was only a pass, damn "fan". But what to do, i dont know whats happening, been putting all my effort on this subject, wats wrong with it, whats wrong with me, all the things were like came all in once. I got to appeal, a must. But what the heck, a distinction and now can only get a pass? Seriously la, i am damn fucking stress, i am not motivated....but still i still got no move on. Yes? NO?But....why me?


I will try my best to fight for it, 2 cans on Heineken, 2 shots of vodka, there arent working for me, i dont know why? Am i immune to these alcohol? I guess not. Now alcoholic drinks are getting more and more expensive, so, i should spend less....especially i got a lot of events to work on and to entertain people. Haih

But i must thank you all, especially those people that are willing to listen to me and give me advice, i seriously appreicate you all, and glad to have friends like you all. :) I am sincere on this :) Thanks. And you know who you are :)

And for those that pretend listened to me, i thank you for putting effort on that, i know i am boring at times, i appreciate your BURNING DISIRE for that. But i still hope you can tell me , i dun want to listen next time, cuz you are fake :).

Oooooo.....online audio with jia disconnected...well, i will wait for a while.

Ending the begining with an end

How far i can really go,
with no motives i am writting this,
But i know the problem could be a pose,
group of posse asked to try only you will know

i am confuse so i end up writting,
skecting this without thinking,
yet my emotion keep on tugging,
without beautiful ending i keep on going

whats happening is because of you,
dreams or memories i dont know,
true or false,
wrong or right,
the only can go through you,
wat done is done.

Whats in my mine is all here
just ending the beginning with an end
what i just want to say for the end of the beggining,
no one in this planet,
can make me half the person when i am with you

I DONT KNOW

I Dont know what will happened in the future,

Love is the only word that can describe my feelings to you
Only you can save me out of this beautiful flaw,
Vegetate myself, when you are not around,
Epic story, i hope that both of us were in.

You are the one that i need,
Objection from others cannot stop me from loving you,
Uncertainty will only make me more thirsty.

Haih

Seriously la, i dun know why recently i got no mood to do things , haih, is it because after i worked hard fo something and i cannot get the pay back so i am like this? maybe yes, mybe no. We shall see how la.

What About Today?

it's getting hard for me, but nobody knows, why because they cant see, i am getting tired after i saw that, i got nothign to say seriously, what about today and whats going on me??? I tot at least i can see myself this time around, my way this time, but but but, is just a joke for me. Sometimes you might not get what you want even you work damn fucking hard on it? HAHA.

So, next time dun set those fucking high targets for yourself to achieve, other wise they harder you will drop, who will hold you, no one. Why because they know even know you. Is just fucking disappointed!!, HUlala. Damn it.

HELP IDOL

Might organise this because of suggestions from friends. Heard it from friends today, so i wan tto give myself a last green lights for huge events before i leave HELP to UQ, been rotting ever since i quit S.A.D,wat the fuck is the big honor for being a vice-president but not contributing, this is another chnace for you, alto not really a successful one but still, i gained experience from there, hope i can make a really nice show for myself this time around. You must know how to handle those problems this time, dun leave it to untill very last minute, communicate well, dun take things from granted, always ask if you dun know or dun understand on the things that people assigned to you. Good, atleast, you know whats the problem with yourself.

It might just be a suggestion, but still, i want to give it a try, with my 200% power. I am on now, so propably....i can do well. With all the fucking thinking, lazyness is not with me now, i must do for good show, not for others, but for ....myself, to feel the proudness that have been long lost in my adolesense stage. It's not so much about the ending, but where it brings me to. I want to feel proud again, YES.

Yong jia, you might stay for another 2 semester excluding this semester, so...go for it. Be yuorself, at least you r doing good with this now, yeah, be yourself, who the fuck cares what other thinks right? yeah? Definitely correct. You are strong, always good on handling pressure, so why not, just make it for this.

Oooo00000o0o0, study time, on, chat time, oh, utopia time(thanks for everything, nivel, yeah?). all the best to yourself, oh yeah, to everyone who read very untill the end, thanks for the patients.

Lalalalala!!!

Choices i am not given, for missing souls out there yeah, by loving you, i still need you not matter what. This is promise you. and these are the things i had to say. I will stand up for the challenge.

What what yeah huh ?

well, i am not saying anything out doesnt mean that i dun like, erm, love you anymore.

I still, yeah, need you in my life, with tons of stuff not post out here because it is not the right time, but i will still wait, because, you worth all that.

i dun know whats happening, i am not complaining, i am not in all those sad and depress mood, i dun know why, one reason for that, i used to it. Nothing seems to work out right, seriously, but hope THINGS WILL GO MY WAY.

is it because i dun have the courage to tell her my feelings? Thats why i am so stuck? YEah? Or because it is not at the right time, i am sick of listening to this, yeah, wait, wait, i am sick of it, seriously. Ohh, the results came out today, pissed of again, work hard for it, but, shit returned to you, wat the ...... Is it meant to be? LOL....

oh yeah, alto you said we are like buddy, but i dun think i wan tot be in the buddy stage, not that seriously, yuo scared me of with your good friend thing and buddy thing, I JUSY DUN WANT TO BE YOUR BUDDY, wat the fuck, dun tell me to think about it, cuz i will risk this friendship for THE ONE UPPEER stage, i will risk it, no one can make me half the person when i am with you, seriously, like what one of my friend said in his blog. No you are not torturing me, you are not abusing me in anyways, whether mentally or physically, tired will not be the word because i love you. I will not deny that, i will not say that i am tired by loving you. willl not......

Patient is Gold!

Well, start of the semester, 3rd weeks, tutorials all started, kinda busy with all the work, especially i am taking accounting one and business statistic, as you people know i suck big in maths, most of the time i am doing my maths stuff(well, some of the time might be a better word). Haha, especially i sethigh target this semester after i think i met all my requirement last semester, alto the results werent out yet. So i am still kinda nervous, but i think humans need to set high(but reasonable targets) for themsevles to achieve more right?

Furthermore, i am not young, not 18, 19, i am 20, so got to do something to satisfy myself. Of course with all these possible targets. Worth it i think, somemore i am not in the mood for blogging after balik from Taman Negara, but it was fun thou, lol, with all the hawaiian dance, i stripped and with all the half coconuts in front of my chest. Whoops, to be continued.

HuLaLa, trees, river. Nusa Camp.

Well, first ever trip to Tmn Negara, it was a good one. I met new friends, see different kinda personalities, oh ya, discovered what gals think about their relationship, alto i cannot generalise, but they scared me on their thinking, maybe they were the more modern one, but i dun think i can accpet those kinda thinkings. With husband, you can still go out with guys? And stay in their room somemore? Well, maybe you aint doing anything, but....haha, you cant stop others thinking.

Reached there at 0400, woke up by friends, the sky is still dark at that time, i was damn hungry but still, got to wait untill 0700 for the stores there to open. " makcik, ada apa makan"?, replied by the makcik with "nasi lemak". So i decided to order nasi lemak, tambah nasi, tambah telur dan tambah ayam. Unfortunately, i can only tambah nasi because they were lack of eggs, and no chicken. well, anyway, i still managed to sapu 2 plates of rice(and the sambah, fuyooh, damn f**king hot).

0830, we went to the jeti(so called jeti) for ferries(so called ferries) to reach Nusa CAMP (situated in the middle of the jungle). Was around 0900 that time, we put our stuff down and waited for a briefing. After all, i am stuff with 4 other guys name Ian, John, Andrew and Stanley in a shalley. They are all cool, just that Stanley is a bit quiet, so dun get to knwo him that well. Especialy when you were on the boat and surround by river, unclean river, and the stream at some place were damn fast, its quite scaring atually but well, but not for me mind you.

Well,nothing much actually, disappoiinted bout the water rafting, but well, splasing river was one of the highlights for the trip. Splasing those unclean water to some unknown people, it was damn fun. we were all wei, but hey, thats a god experience.

We went to a orang asli village, they showed us how to make fire with bomboo(dry sial bamboo), how the use the long stick thingie to hunt(well, i dun know the name for that).

Also, spying some idiots at night, a friend of mine called John shouted with the "police, police....." and knocked on the door hard and loud, that was the fun part. well, ask someone esle, you cant imagine that seriusly, thats why for th epeople out there that missed this trip, what i can say is, " padan muka".

you can also see some "siu jie" acting in a damn siu jie ways, the way they talk, the way the speak and the way the socialize, damn, kids. They tot they know a lot but they know shit. LOL. Well, at least they still can dance in the bus and got wetat the water fall, with those lovely dovey nice panties, that was cool. 0-O.

lets not forget the hawaiian dance, i am half naked, with the half coconut tied(like wearign a bra) in front of your chest, quite embarasse firstly, but then....just that i dunno how to do some sexy wild wet dance. Gosh...wish i can do that in the future.

overall the trip was awesome, just that, a bit cacat, the gal cannot go because she need to catch up her studies after a trip to somewhere else. ohya, the foods there sucks, imagine chicken curry were cook with maggi mee seasonal corry flavor, LOL, thats the killer.

if i got time to do all those stupid and time wasting stuff, i will upload the pictures for my buddies out there. :)

See

Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!

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Hey people, i am going off a week, so i will not see you all here. Just leave me a message or send an email to my mailbox yjchia@gmail.com :)

i am evil

I am 23% evil.

I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

Can you hear me?

Hey, you know that, where ever you are, i will always see you in my dreams, wherever i go, i hope that you can be here next to me. Wherever we are or a world apart, i just feel that you will never be that far to me.

Because you here in my heart, the picture of us. Together forever Unfaded and Unbroken. Whenever i miss you so much, its more that i can bear, but i just wont cry, i will just close my eyes, and hold my breath, your touch that i will never forget, and you will be there forever in my heart.

Are these just in my dreams, i dont know, but i dont want to hold for to long although i love the hope. Well, i might sound a little crazy, but you are the one that i have been waiting all my life. There's just now reason, it is just a sense of completion when i am with you, i think is because the joy, the certainty, the pleasure, and the comfort that surround all around me when i am with you.

So cant you hear me say?

Resurrecting!

i felt better a yamcha session with xaviz, zynn and freddy. I think sometimes i am spending time alone too much. sometimes is good to spend time with friends, you all can talk about anything and you will not have to time to be confuse and stuff that will not benefits you. So keep on thinking those nonsese and you will be in deep shit, Think more, YEAH<>.

TOO bad, you dont belong to me yet.......wish you r beside m now.

My Feelings towards you.

Can this be true and can be this real?
I always though my life was complete,
I knew i was wrong untill i met you,
I dun know whats happening?
What i want?
But the only thing i know, you are the one i want,
You are the one that i need ,
But you are so far away,
Yyou dont belong to me,
I am just out of my mind when you are not around,
I have tried many ways just to see you,
You are like a drug to me, i am addicted to you
I am like a bird with a broken wing if is without you,
I am like a man without a soul if is without you,
Your love is like a river , peaceful and deep,
I am happy when i received your message,
I am so happy when i am together with you,
Even thought the time we spend were short,
I hope i can freeze the time when you were with me,
I love the way you speak,
The way you smile,
You impressed me from your very own way,
No others can make me feel like you do,
And you derserve for the only one,
I just cannot hide myself when i am with you,
I revealed every part for you that i always hide from others,
I even cried in front of you that i dont in front of others,
Why? Because i feel comfortable when i am with you,
I can say something to you that i dont to others,
What do these mean?
If you are not the one, then why do i like you that much?
If you are not the one, then why i feel so glad when i see you?
If you are not the one, why your name resound in my head?
If you are not the one for me, then why i cried in front of you?
And there are so many if, if...if...if....to complete the sentences.


Sometimes its just hard to believe that i can meet someone like you,
You make me work hard not just for you, also for myself,
You are my vision for the summer,
You are the best that i ever had.
I dont know what will happened in the future,
But i hope i can make it through,
Together with you,
I hope you can understand,
These are just some thought of mine that has been written by my pen.

Damn, dun think about it, stop it, you want to score for your exams right, so stop thinking. stop it and you will save youreself from heaven, yeah, stop. You can do it, for sure yuo can do it, you already finsih those chaps and from now, you got to finish the rest of it, stop thinking, its just because of exams, it illusion, stop ot, dun think about it, stop STOP STOP, come on, you r a guy, thse problem will not affect you right, small matter only, stop it and dun think about it and you will be fine, you got to work for it after this, got it, YONG JIA you can do it.

Some thoughts

Ideal life is hard to achieve,
Influenced by others point of view,
Clouded his sight,
Striving for what he wants
To satisfy his needs.

Covered by a Coat
Looks like concrete,
But fragile actually,
Flying with his broken wings
Searching all around

Problems burried bottom down the road,
Deep Down Inside,
Things are still the same,
Problems remain as problems

Things are haunting him down,
Little may know what's the reason,
many days have passed him by,
So many things to hold on
But who the fuck cares,
As long he is satisfy.

Good Guy Good Girl...

Today, went makan with a girl, we talked about many things and suddenly she sigh and complained to me where r all the good guys? Well, as a guy's responsibility, i got to tell her where all the good ones....

So firstly i asked her whether she knows what is a girl's nature? She looked at me and said nothing, so i assumed that she dun know about itand i decided to tell her what is a girl's nature, and here you go( and i think a number of "good" girls out there will agree on the things that i said)

"Always testing whether a guy love her or not "

Well,some gals out there, you might not agree on what i said, but this is the best answer that i can give you and this is the fact.

Whenever a good guy spoted a "good" girl and ask her for a date FOR THE FIRST TIME, for sure she will declined. Some guys out there might ask " why the female specimen want to decline since she knows that I am a "good guy"(she knew) and i am a guy that she likes and is the one that she was looking for". Well, to answer you this, only a smart guy like me can answer you. And here you go, the female specimen will think that, if you successfully asked me out for the first time, people will think that i am an easy target for guys..... So, a nice gals rejected a good guy to show them that they are worth for the second try...instead, a guy's heart is weak and fragile, they are not that STRONG as what gals tot.....

Usually the "face" for a good guy is not that "thick", as a result, it will be time consuming for a "good" girl to wait for the good guy to ask her out for the second time again(the guy is thinkning whether to ask her out again but rejection keeps him away).... If the guy does not go for the second attempt and just let go his target, she will said the guy has got no REAL INTENTION to court her and...if not, why he is not asking for the second time?Well.....

Ok, lets say, the guy asked the girl out again and the girl agrees on it. But the girl make a deadly mistake again..... They've told each other to meet at 6 o clock, but a "good" girl will always late for the date....well, usually more then half an hour only the girl will appears..... to prove that they are worth for a guy to wait for them.

However, bad will be bad and good will be good ,because of waiting too long, the good guy will think that "ok, since you dun look into this date, i cant force you to go out with me".As a result.........oh well.

So i told my friend that , good guys are still around actually, just that the gal din notice.... So dun complain where are all the good guys, oh well, you might already let go some "nice guys instead just because of gals' "NATURE".

Oh well well, because our break time was short, so we have a little time on this topic.

Sportsmanship.

Watching olympics, sort of "argued" with my dad, spent around 50 minutes to talk to him and i won. First time winning him in a debate, YES!!. We were watching badminton match betwwen Gade and Taufik, so we were sort of debating something about "sportsmanship" and "fairplay". Damn, it was not easy to win him in talk, you know, he was an insurance agent last time. Haha. Just that he quited. You can imagine, talking(debating) non-stop, and you were sweating at that time, need to be flexible, keep on changing tactics and turning your mind up side down and thinking on how to deal with him, Fuiiiyoh....finally, i am victorious for the very first time. Yeah, is a history for me.:P


Aiks, finals comming, 2 more weeks. ok, got to print the schedule out as a motivator and a reminder for me. gonna stick the piece on the wall so that the schdule can haunt me down. Well, goodbye for today.

boring day

Sheesh, how many days i din touch my text book already, 3? 4 days? Oh, come on, Yong jia, finals is comming, 3 more weeks and if you r not starting now, you r going to be in deep shit, dun waste your midterm's effort, you can do better right?Sigh......3 subjects, come on, at least get a couple of distinction for the first time in business......

Haih, went for a movie just now, Collateral, not bad....well, not like others movie, it does inspire me(i din comsume a lot of H20 this time, to avoid going to toilet, if not i will miss some again)......damn, i am gaining weight since the treadmill is not working.....ate a french tose and a chicken cop rice, sports carnival is real soon, and i am "pancit-ing" at this time, wasting my effort again and again.....no i must back on track on monday....is a must to work hard again. I am facing this computer in this 3-4 days time, if i can spend these time on gals, dont you think is a much more better way....gosh

Read a couple of blogs, and now kept me wondering, why people want to get into relationships if it's hurt?????I tot relationships are all about trust????Yes? NO??Come on, it's just a picture? and you felt jeolous just becuase of that,oh ....come on, oh well. Is 5 am now, time for bed i think.....Keep on the hard work, YONG JIA, you can do it.HAHAHAHA, yeah i thin i can since i am a good guy, wise etc tec, need to say more. -END-

what do you think?

we spend our life searching for the things we want, but do you know that we already have them?

The Way I FeEL!

Lately i have been wondering,
All i know it's you always pull me thru,
If you reach deep inside, you will see my heart is true,
You will know that i need you in my life,
It is pulling more and more each day,
i begin to pray,
Cuz i hate the way i feel tonight,
and i hate the way that i feel inside,
with everything i do,
My spirit calls for you.

Love Song

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am home again

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am young again

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you

However long I stay, I will always love you

Whatever words I say, I will always love youI will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am free again

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you

However long I stay, I will always love you

Whatever words I say, I will always love youI will always love you

From: 311

Appreciate

I am thinking, on how to put a title for this, but well since I cannot find a suitable ones for this, I am going to tell a story for straight away.


"Do you know a 6 years old kid loses her family in the war in IRAQ?6 brothers, 2 sisters, parents, grandma, and grandpa. She was adopted by a an old man age around 60. He saw her alone sitting in the rubble, her whole family was burred in it, she was sitting there helplessly, but the old man said that he felt strange because the gal is not crying for daddy or mummy or something, but she is just sitting there. With the dirty clothing that she wore, the smell of war and gun powder, dead bodies everywhere. The first day he passed by, she was sitting above a big rubble, so he did not bothered because he is also trying hard for a living, to look for scavenges around that area. The second day, when he passes by, the gal was still sitting there alone, at the same place, but the different was, she was shivering because of the pouring rain. He was in a rush to get home with an broken umbrella. He felt pity for her, so he approached the gal and offer her with a small pieces of bread that was wrap in plastic. The gal did not gave him any response until the old man touches her and found out that she was blind.........

Today, the gal is living happily with the old man, she treated him as his second daddy. The old man like her adopted daughter as well, although life is still tough there, but both of them are working hard for it. A reporter interview her and surprisingly she told the reporter that she is happy with the situation now because she was good luck enough to have assigned family, although they are striving thru hard time after the war, but still she was better then many others if to compare......with those that actually loitering alone at the streets with broken legs, hands...or even with those that need to fight with wild dogs for food to make a live.And also she mentioned that she does not hate the United States Government because they are much more worse than she is now, although they are the one that destroy everything she owns, but the people there are living under the tread of terrorists, they are worrying and fear all the time......"

Well, haha. The purpose for me to made up this story is to tell people to appreciate what you have, love your family, country and everything. A lot of people seems to be unsatisfying with what they are having now,student complain that they are not having enough spending money, people said that Malaysia is not a peaceful country because of certain problems, this and that and all the non-sense thingie. But they don't really know that his or her parents, or the constant and current leader are actually working hard for this country.Leaders and parents are working all day long, problems that they faced, you dun really know if you dun put yourself in their shoes. What they know are to complain complain and non-stop complains. Leave this country right now if you dun like, why bothering staying here and using up all the country's resources? Things are not done in just one day, they need time. Even your mommy need 9 months to "produce" you out.And some people suicide just because the results they got were not satisfy, the boyfriend or girlfreind dumped them, oh come on. Make a life. I guess that All You Got, Is All You Gonna Get. But well, thats human's nature to ask for more. Finally, the "contestant" for the title is out, and it will be "appreciate".

Once again, life is not some kind of a problem that you must solve to live. Leave it, Live it.

For Every Broken Heart in HeRe!

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here
Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop usIs it not worth the risk?
Yeah, is it not worth the risk?

Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
We can't go onThinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

*by the calling*

Wise Choice

As a result, i have made a right one for changing major...haha. So, mean that i have got the conceptual skills as the future's "big" one.

Aiya, damn boring , like nobody business.....One friend in NZ actually intro me to a couple of online games....F1 and something called utopia. Damn, the F1 thing is still ok, not really consume time, but the utopia is a killer man. Damn, he want to make me to get addicted to them so i can be crazy like him...mmm....what is he thinking about, i seriously dunno, somemore asked me to intro chun chicks to him out of a sudden...what am i suppose to do and how am i suppose to know what kind and which type of personality suits him.....seriously make my life...."TOUGH".

Anyway, quite happy today , met all my targets....hehehehe.

Fake

yeah, there are various kind of people in this world, kind, good, bad, selfish, yeah, every kind. Some are good and some are bad. Well, sometimes, you got to deal with these kinda people, they competes, the pretend, the cover themselves with masks. So you got to be careful, find someone that you really can trust. One for all, and all for one.

One more thing, don't treat matters as serious one. But certain amount of pressure will kept you motivate. Of course, dont go to the extent untills it bother you and it haunt you untill you are down. Seek help from friends that you "think"  you can trust definitely. Lifes are full of problems, is a pathway that you must go thru, find, go find something that you can rely on. Be hard , be tough, no one will actually help you up if you are not helping yourself. Anyway, life is not a problem that you must solve seriously, so just let it be.

How to make yong jia

How to make a jia
Ingredients:3 parts mercy3 parts humour1 part empathy
Method:Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add fitness to taste! Do not overindulge!

today's diary

Finally, done my midterms, well, i think this is a not bad one thou.....things that you study came out, case study that you spoted came out as well, at least, it is not something like psychology, not making sense, not applicable, and non realistic. Opps....dear fellow, dun bang me on this, come on, i am just trying to say something that come out from  my mind.

So, as a results, i am going to play hard for the next few days, since one of my philosophy is, play hard, study smart. :) Well, dun try to hard to solve your lifes problem, it may never come to an end, just live it, because it is not a thing that you must solve, right !?

I am just asking, i am not fierce right, mun khui, pls, say something.

looking back!

You always say,
that i am too late,
it broken my fragile heart,
but, i am not giving up,
i am not picking up the pieces,
i feel so broken and intend to give up,
but i havent try, 
because i wanted to give you a strike,
to tell you and let you know,
there's just no one that can get me like you do.
 
you, are the reason for me to keep going,
the reason for me to keep motivate,
a girl that i can't resist,
a mate that i always wanted,
literate, stylish,quiet and kissable,
So, from here, i want to scream my lungs out,
that you are my only one.
 
I want to be the one that share your ups and downs,
to stay right beside you,
to make myself breath easy,
i know that i need you,
to help me make it through all the night,
you gave me my the strenght,
and i can't let go of you. 
 
Well,I know that it might seema bit too late,
but i need you, so i got to find a way, to tell you that i love you.
I dont want to spend another night alone,
at this empty time.
 
In here, i make you as my vision,
you will be the best that i ever had,
you are the unspoken of a knowing feeling,
i will just follow my heart,
and eventually i will get it right.
 
 

Please, read my code!!

I want the words
something you haven't heard
will I find them and
will I have what it takes to say them
in the world beside
this one there are no lies and
no suspicion
only dreams without end

You gotta feel what I mean
Look into my eyes and know
I'm trying to come clean
But I stumble every time
And then the words they escape
fail to take shape
It's all in the code now , come on, feel it

Feel what I mean
Look into my eyes and know
I'm trying to come clean
But I stumble every time
And then the words they escape
fail to take shape
It's all in the code now, so i cant make.

Will you let me retract let me take it back
Sometimes my words lack and my mind flies off the track
What I'm trying to convey is miles from what I say
And you slip away

I been trying to transmit a feeling
I been hoping you receive what I'm revealing
See the main thing is hang with me and relate
As we communicate watch out
Fenced in like a dog between houses
Balled up by the trouble my mouth gets
Wrapped up in the things that I don't know
don't you know
Hoping that you crack the code oh

The first to crack the code
(You may not think I'm ready to have your love again) oh oh
(You may not think I'm ready)
You are the first to crack my code

I want the words
something you haven't heard
will I find them and
will I have what it takes to say them

Didn't I know I'm wrong wrong wrong when you knew
You didn't have to give me so long long long to see through
Not predictable what I will do but you know
Cause you cracked the code

Your body is a country
that you know I'll return to
craving like a family heirloom
that I am into
no baby how could I follow
everything you do
just remember when we touch
I feel so renewed

The first to understand me that would be you
It can't work if we can't be open and true
The best thing to happen to me let it be told
That would be the moment that you cracked my code oh oh

DedaDE

Ya, right, first one here.