Gamble!!

Watched the movie about gambled which was directed by a Singaporean Actor, "Zhi Qiang" before? I bet a lot of the Malaysians and Singaporeans watched it before because his movies are kind of funny, and the most importantly, it make sense.

In the movie, it said something that make sense, on why people gamble, and here is the reason said by them, " These people gamble because that gives hope to them everyday. That is the reason why they were addicted to these behavior that we catogorized as bad. I kind of agrred on this phrase. People "sell-life" just to buy those tickets, lottery for hopes. They dreamed that once they strike the first prize, they will have a lot of money and strive less. Also, some of the bad phrases influenced by HK files suck as "you will stand a chnace if you forever gamble", this is a sucky phrase but still many people believe it. However, these noobs never think themselves on these phrases and what it really means.

Well, why i came up with such "article" out of a sudden, is because i got a chnace to see how these things recently, not that i didnt see these before. But it is the first time i felt so symphaty for these people...

These people spent a ringgit(RM) up to a few thousand just to "buy" the hope. They buy numbers, but they don't know the chnaces for thme to win a number is so so so so so so slight. Well, if you don't believe, you can ask Levin about it and he will calculate for you because his math is so darn good. They forever think that they will win one day. I saw some old ladies, paying money for the numbers they bought, old men doing the same thing like the old ladies, young guns like you and me parking their motorcycles outside the shop and buy the "heart-water" numbers when they are supposingly working and not spending time of these. I saw some house-wife, paying money for the numbers bringing empty buckets(arent they were supposed to be fill in with foods?), i even saw some look-a-like malays buying numbers although there is a sign-board in the shop saying,Gambling is prohibited for muslims, i thought these are against their Allah?

These people line-up in a long queue, or standing at the counter buysing writting the numbers. When the central offline , those that failed to buy the numbers will blame those typist because of their lack of efficiency indirectly casuing them failed to buy the numbers and lost the chnace to win the money.

But from my point of view, these people lose their soul, they failed because they were controlled by the desire, the disipline and the lust. Arent we human are well-known for self-control? What are the difference for human to n=animals if they cannot acheive this?

Some of the elders in the family said, "Xiao Du Yi Qing, Ta Du Shang Gan Qing", means, smaller bets do make you feel happy and nicer, it creates harmoney, but if you bet big, it hurts the relationship with someone. I kind of agree on this after i saw those variety behaviors recently.

IF i Failed to Plan, I Planned to Fail.

Seriously, what is it all about? Some showing-you-know-the-life theory? Well, i dont know. Recently, this is the quote that inspired me. How am i going to work this out?

Always i am the kind that lazy around not untill i am close to the deadline, i am so proud of myself for my ability to spent more then 24 hours for studying, assignments when its near the deadline but not leaving my job till the last minute. Well, my results wern't that good because of this reason that i cant kep my disiplin up to the level. My results were always on the margin of creit and pass. But luckily and unfortunately, i have someone supports me and i always take things or granted. But, i am changing.

I do beleive this is a very good start for me since i went to college, i chnaged a lot, i do feel it myself, i am becomming a better person if compared to last time.If i just hold on to one more second, just hold on to what myself are, i will wake up tomorrow. But am i not good enough for the world?

Someone that is important told me, "Jia, if you can consistently use your time for your studies, you might even get Distinctions". And i do believe myself if i set that as my vision of this summer, i can do it. But i do appreciate the someone that keep supporting me even thou i failed my subjects and not living up to his expectation, yet he always gave me his support. Yet, it seems so far for me to pay this "debt" back to him. When am i going to pay this and i am growing up everyday...

Went to watch movie with a idiot yesterdat, a midnight movie at around 12.30, called him up because there's a lot of mosses above my head... thanks for his accompany, but still, i want to say something, he sucks cuz i kept me waiting for 1 hour and 20 minutes...and this sucks because normally i i dont wait more then 30 minutes for guys...and he brought a gal with him too....how am i goign to chat with him?

Pool Side Party

Went to a pool side party. Darn, its happening, really love it, i thought i wouldnt enjoy there but IT Superb la. Play some outdoor game sbut i miss the outdoor fun because i don know how to swim and i think i really need someone to teach me how to swim(anyone pls offer me :( ).

Then after dinner, we played some indoor games, i think i won Rm 50 Bucks. Oh, we drank beer and we won, we were the group that drank all the 8 cans of beer. RM 100 Cash and A bottle of Henessy. Darn, its awesome. Got to know some really hot chicks as well. Mna, dont you think its wonderful. Later we open bottle and we play some stupid interesting games, Fuiyooh. and its great.

This was the first time for me to joined these party and i definitely would join for the next time if i do have the chnace and the time and the energy to join.

Read!

I've learned something that enlighten me recently,
Don't know why, its something that i knew,
Just that i didnt use it last time.Its because i am too naive or because of perspective chnaged.?

But one thing for sure, i have gone through the stage and went to a upper one.
Which is a good thing i think, its impossible for one to be on the same stage forever, time will change one person. And indeed, that event changed me, A LOT. Well, thats what people said, we learned from mistakes, and we gained experience.

Well, i din get what i want, something that i dream of last time. Soemthing that i craved so fucking hard and something that i put so much effort on it. It all went down to the drain : ). It did upset me a lot :), its hurts(maybe it hurted), the feeling of heartache. Fuiyohh, man, you really don't feel like trying it i tell you.

But there's no perfect in this world. THe bad things might not be the bad one's, and the good one's might not be the good one's. So, why should we guard it so hard untill we suffered? Its not HARSH to yourself, but you are damn stupid for letting go the things that you actually want and you think people will say you "wei ta" because of letting it go? No man, not at all. But indeed, you are very stupid, what kind of nonsense you are telling yourself? We do make mistakes. And we all did, Whats the big deal as long you tell yourself you will not committe to smomething like that.

Because of the reason you told me through msn that day? Damn, its BS, you can throw them and flush them away. Do you want her?If you love her so much, you can "dismissed" all the feelings yuo have, you can throw away you fucking ego, your fucking dignity.Tell yourself, you are not a quitter. Come on man, lets get real.

Man, why am i saying something different that i intended to say before this? Anwiay, i think i am going for a sleep and i will write soemthing later.

Deep and Meaningless

I, Dont know why missed you so much.
Yeah I, dont know why still feel your touch.
You, Lift me up and high and dry

Putting me into nothing but a dead connection,
If you call me today, i will say that i am fine,
but from the tone of my voice you can know that its just a lie.

Do you know what you were doing to me,
But yet i was too blind to see.

Collide

It's a shame what ones have become
When we hurt the ones we love
And its a place that you cannot go, anymore

When you collide you lose yourself
When you collide you break into 2
And as you push and you shove and you hurt the one you love,
Its a hard mistake
When you collide
you break,

When the cold comes crashing down,
and the fight lost what it's about,
I can tell you that you have left
Something that its a shame what you've become
When you hurt the one you love
Is a place that you cannot go.

Its a hrd mistakes
wheny ou collide.

Whole again

I will love you till the day i die
I would tell you how much i'll need you everyday
for my life long to love someone like you
with a heart silhouetted the perfect passion

I would try to be a better lover
i don't care if i lose my all
cause its you i've been dreaming for this life time
so here's my heart, waiting for you to take it baby

come and take my heart tonight
cause its u i've been waiting for all the while
come and take my heart tonight
make me whole again

I see clouds filling up the moon
and the green turning into blue and faded
i would say things were wrong and now i'm missing you
i will have to make amends cause it'll be till the end

do you think i would stop for what i've been leaving out these nights
girl i've been craving you'd be mine, all mine
you are all that have made my life, i wont let you down this time
baby i want you back here in my life forever.