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I've learned something that enlighten me recently,
Don't know why, its something that i knew,
Just that i didnt use it last time.Its because i am too naive or because of perspective chnaged.?

But one thing for sure, i have gone through the stage and went to a upper one.
Which is a good thing i think, its impossible for one to be on the same stage forever, time will change one person. And indeed, that event changed me, A LOT. Well, thats what people said, we learned from mistakes, and we gained experience.

Well, i din get what i want, something that i dream of last time. Soemthing that i craved so fucking hard and something that i put so much effort on it. It all went down to the drain : ). It did upset me a lot :), its hurts(maybe it hurted), the feeling of heartache. Fuiyohh, man, you really don't feel like trying it i tell you.

But there's no perfect in this world. THe bad things might not be the bad one's, and the good one's might not be the good one's. So, why should we guard it so hard untill we suffered? Its not HARSH to yourself, but you are damn stupid for letting go the things that you actually want and you think people will say you "wei ta" because of letting it go? No man, not at all. But indeed, you are very stupid, what kind of nonsense you are telling yourself? We do make mistakes. And we all did, Whats the big deal as long you tell yourself you will not committe to smomething like that.

Because of the reason you told me through msn that day? Damn, its BS, you can throw them and flush them away. Do you want her?If you love her so much, you can "dismissed" all the feelings yuo have, you can throw away you fucking ego, your fucking dignity.Tell yourself, you are not a quitter. Come on man, lets get real.

Man, why am i saying something different that i intended to say before this? Anwiay, i think i am going for a sleep and i will write soemthing later.