小朋友

Not an easy day looking at my fren suffering,
This is the 3rd day listening to his so "story",
I feel his pan although he said no,
But mate, if you are looking at this,
Although i doubt it, but mate
Give youself sometime, you need more time,
i know that you got hurt, so hurt by her,
Give yourself more time to recover.

However, today the main story is not this,but this：
有位小朋友生气了，
因为读者没有在他的blog留言，
原来如此，
可是小朋友不要这样嘛。。。
不留言不代表不关心哦
可是，哈。好可爱哦！！！

“Chia，帮帮我吧！
Ryo 不在了，只有你能帮我。
我是第一次，那么想念一个人，
我终于明白你的心情了。。。。。”

一个到了Sweden读书的朋友，
叫我帮他一个忙，
爱情？唉！
一个比我男人还大的男人，
竟然要我向他的女朋友说，
这个一星期来，他是那么的想念他，
他是那么的想念他；
只要他接他的电话。。。
都是我的错，我不应该那么大声的说话。。。


自己一个人再lab做assignment的时候，一个朋友所托的忙。。。
既然答应要做说客，
只有好好的干吧。
他还千交待，万交待。。。
Chia，如果你受了冷言冷语，
请不要离开。。。
帮我一个忙，只要他接我的电话就行了。
嗯，就帮你吧！


回想自己。。。
也不知要跑多久
未来的路，也都不确定，
什么是坚强？
看着镜里只剩自己，
所谓的永远，每次都好像很遥远，
说了一百遍我爱你，好像也还不够。。。
诺言，也好像有限期。

在The Warehouse 工作了一年多，
辛苦，厌了，累了。
讨厌要一早4点起来的感觉，
刚好圣诞要到了，工司提早进经单。
工作量提高，所以有了night shift…
这也好，反正需要到钱。
工资也比早班多3块钱，就这样给干上了。

和朋友共车一同到Port of Brisbane去，
工作时间漫长的，8个小时。。。
有如机器般的，
还要受人的气。。。
一眼的瞪回他！
辩驳我也懒得，
我呆在这狗不拉屎，鸟不生蛋的地方
不会多过3个月。

右手还没好，只要用力久了，会感到没力，
所以今天并没有平时的轻松，
吃力的。

工作完毕和另一个Japan朋友回家，
他的车竟然抛锚
要和同事接车Jump Start,
还好没有堵车，
20分钟就到了餐厅。。。
用了5分钟，狼吞虎咽办得就吃完了
就因为样，所以没有到KK。

朋友提醒我说是中秋节，
因为不关心，把什么都忘了，
同事也问我为什么要干到9点，
算了，也没人陪我吃团圆饭，那就晚点吧！
钱也多点
还好不是一个人吃晚餐，
和Kohhei一起也很好说话，
介绍他吃的晚餐也很满意。。。
希望家人朋友们都多吃点月饼吧。
也希望大家早点毕业把…
如果你们知道你们是谁。

前几天打电给Alfred这小子，
和他谈了，
马的，一点改变也没有。。。
还是和我谈回同样的话题。。。
一点新意都没。。。


晚了睡吧。。。

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“如果一件事情， 你总说自己没有错， 但心里却一直放不下，也许你心里还是在怀疑， 到底自己有没有做错。。”.

“我们会在意身边的人的说法，想法， 看法， 是因为我们不是自己一个人活在这个世界上。”



心里却一直放不下就只有一件事我放不下。。。
等等，
也都7788了。

是什么也不必谈。

有没有错，是从旁观者的角度不是我。

怀疑，在意，
也只是在还没肯定前。。。
做了决定后，很少后悔，
也学到不后悔。

会在意身边的人的说法，想法， 看法。 就让给我重视的人，
慢慢的探，
如果我的决定，
是可以让人摸透，
我就不是永佳了。


“p/s: 最后那一段。。 你好像是在自言自语。。 我看了两遍都kua boh~ 你写的时候，心情应该很烂吧。。不管怎样，希望你不会再有那天的坏心情咯。。”

措！

写时心情并不烂
而是有感而发。

老子很欣慰可以写得出如此佳作！
希望老子会有更多这样的感觉。

I look at you, you bite your tongue
You don't know why or where I'm coming from
But in my head I'm close to you
We're in the rain still searching for the sun

You think that I want to run and hide
That I keep it all locked up inside but I just want you to find me

I'm not lost; not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we are all the same as each other

You see the look that's on my face
You might think I'm out of place
I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

Well the time it takes to know someone
It all can change before you know it's gone
So close your eyes and I feel the way I'm with you now
Believe there's nothing wrong

I'm not running, I'm not hiding
But if you dig a little deeper, you will find me

Strategy International Marketing Presentation得了 8.5/10分。

Strategic Marketing Management Midterm 得了16/25分。
还以为可以得20，哎。。。

张学友。。。宝刀未老！

失去自己，
从今，
做回自己，
是我在17号7月2007年说给我自己听的。

可是，发现做回自己只有50%，尚有50%，有待发掘。。。
从前的自己，不怕被人误会，被不关心的人误会我也懒得解释，可却怕带来的无意伤害。
自己的脾气，自己知道。有人说我骄傲，自大。我才不管那么多，你要说就说吧！
自己的部落格，本来就是让自己发表心身的，没想到，会伤害到人。
这也算了，可是又不打从心理的歉疚。
多话不用说出吧，可是，就是说出残忍的话，毕竟是身边的一个过云雨。。。何必！

来了澳洲一年半，打电话回家的次数，一直手掌数得清。
记得小时，送哥出国留学，
回家过程时油流眼泪，被老爸说了一句长不大，
从此对家人的不闻不问，并不代表我不关心，不代表我很冷漠，可能就是从老爸的身上学到的。
我对身边的人都是问心无愧，对不住的人，可能只有我的家人吧。。。我的爸和妈。
无悔的付出，只有现在才体会得到.
做人的道理，基本的常识。。。现在受用无穷。
虽然还学不到老爸的一半。。。

离开的目的是什么呢?
是因为要团聚。
前几个礼拜听了老妈的声音后，
并不想像的啰嗦。。。反而是温柔无比。。。
不是因为收到外婆进院的消息，
我也不会打回家吧。

断了一段5年的追求，不是我想要得，却是我一定要接受，
虽然心不甘，情是万个不愿。。。。。
可是确实让我学到，
要的，不一定得到。
爱的，不一定可以留在身边。
可是我乃相信，我没有做错，也不必解释，不必讨论。
多谈也只是多一举。。。澳洲的冬天，比不上我心的寒冷。

被人误会的沉默，的不关心，的没行动，被人比喻成打电动游戏的追求，让我心灰意冷。。。。。。
还需要时间的证明吗？省着点吧！
我？离开了谁也都可以好好的身活，自由的。


我的不快乐，你看不到
有苦自己知，你看到的，只是我的好。
你只看到我的好，却看不到你自己的优点，你不满足。
人的辛苦就在于自己的不满足，我也不满足。
我想要更好。。。
错！我不胜过你，可是我不承认比任何人差。



“ 你的泪光柔弱中带伤，
惨白的月弯弯勾住过往，
夜太漫长凝结成了霜，
是谁在阁楼上冰冷地绝望。”

多伤感的歌词

Striking Hard?

Can you see that striking hard right beside my blog's name? You must be thinking i am doing my work allllllll the freaking time.. Instead, my answer for you is, "HELL NO".

Ive been lurking around, being a really hardcore sleepy head, a Uni student that sleeps in the morning and surviving around like a zombie at night.. OH GOSH, who wants to give some motivation to me , or at least a WAke UP Call every morning?? It will be much appreciated.

Assignments, presentations... finalsare all around the corner... OMG... and i am still....Where did all my motivation gone? Down te drain? Ha, not actually, they are just hidden somewhere in my brain...waiting to be explored.

Alright mates... got to go, thats all for tonight...

干！

马的，真的是要好好改进自己际的身活习惯。早上6点睡，下午2点起。。

Miss my 10am class and 3 pm tutorials... received a message from Joshau Plowman saying that i am lazy...

But i am not lazy actually, just that i need to help out my sleep, when it attack... i need to accompany him. I feel like waking up but it doesnt allowed me to wake up.

Tried to lure with with nice dreams and all.

看了一个朋友的部落格，觉得蛮不错, 让我有了启发。

女座8/23～9/23

懶惰指數
勤勞工作的一群
處女座的人勤勞而潔癖是出了名的，雖然喜歡雞蛋裡挑骨頭的個性讓人不敢領教之外，其他都還算不錯。在工作時也喜歡自找麻煩的一再確定事情的細節之外，也會讓人感覺到事情好像越做越複雜，其實只是在原地繞圈子白忙而已。勤勞是好事，但是要縮短自己浪費的時間去勤勞，似乎也很難。
消除懶惰蟲秘方：一個懶蟲無法寄生的星座，叫他第一名也不為過。


實力總檢閱
交涉力、管理能力、集中力、判斷力、規律性、中立度和溝通力非常高的你，在工作上往往有一定的成就，可以做好管理層的工作，不會感情用事，成功度極高。【針無兩頭利】相對地和合作伙伴只適宜君子之交，除工作之外，不宜有進一步的關係，一旦糾纏便會自覺麻煩多多。旺盛的好奇心令自我要求不斷進步，太多的顧慮又會令你反覆思量，複雜而矛盾的心理將你陷入不安的情緒之中，很容易產生神經衰弱，小心！


被侮辱後的反應
處女座的人定會很冷靜，很理智地分析那個人侮辱他的原因，動機，目的，大腦裏迅速列出100條報復的方案，並依次權衡利弊，並且組織一套很經典，很完美的辯詞，
剛準備開口時，發現那個人早走了。
(等級:★★★★★)

An amend!

I have posted an absurd post a few days ago and i think it is deemed necessary for me to apologize on the things i've said after i have agreed with some of my friends sentiments that i might cause hard feelings to people and to those who are related.


The reason for me to do this at first is because of reasons' superiority complex.
I though no one from a certain connection would have read it plus it is a world for me to post my thoughts. But this proved that i am wrong as the click had rise from an average post of 1-2 to 68 in just a couple of days.


So here, i would like to say sorry to a certain group of people for the mistake ive committed. Thus, the action taken is to take the particular post down to prove that the action is regretable as i did not fullfilled obligations as a friend.

fucking flu cough sorethroat and blood!

why do i need to be the victim for the fucking flu, it is so fucking annonying... sleep sleep sleep, wasting my precious time... damn it.

For my sister

My sister did everthing for me.

Left Melbourne 2 days ago but i forget to give her a hug.

Well, i got to tell you, " I regreted that i forget to give you a hug when i left that day. I love you my sis.

Better for me to send to her by text.

Someone ask me that day, " what is the worst pain for you ever"?

Well, a mischivious guy like me... who love sports, who love adventure...
who climb the 6.2 foot high gate
with the 2 cm sharp stick bar went through his arm...
"brave boy, you don't need any medicine to reduce pain"
Well, at that time... i was thinking as well, yea i dont need that..

but know OMFG, why don't you try yourself it is freaking pain GDI...



But what i can tell is, the pain from the heart, because you don't know where the wound is, you can minimize the pain with medicine... you don't know the time that it will heal...

Do you know what i am talking about? Not too sure? Try it and you will know! :P

Recommendation!

Fall in love with slow songs recently, and something light, maybe i am getting old??

Musics
1: < Maroon 5 > It Won't Be Soon before Long
2: < Damien Rice > O

Series
1: <24> Season 6

I remember

Feel kind of depress yesterday,
Feel the loneliness everytime when i am with someone...

maybe we all feel loneliness in our heart,
just that everyone tried to hide it,
including me...

not too sure whether she will think about me sometimes, just sometimes..
not too sure, i hope she does...
what is wrong with me ? trying to hope for something? i only hope for her in my life...

he cut his hair when he was in melbourne...
he spent 39 dollars for a spiky hair cut...
he wants to chnage his image...
start a new life...


well, xaviz said, "just forget about her".
levin said, " you are not letting go because you dont want to lose"
a few other said, " does she worth the effort?"

he still remember the time she sat beside her,
after 24 hours and 1 second, he felt in love with her,
hiding aside just to see her sometime,
call her by saying something boring......
but just want to see her and listen to her

do you call this love at first sight?

So many things people said,
but can they feel it?
is it so hard for me to love someone?
is it so easy for me to put all the effort and a heart for someone?

always with ' i dont care', i dun give a damn attitude' kind of person will not do such thing...
but such a guy, like me...


he did it.

He nevers fail to think about her.... never ever,
can someone else make him to feel such way again?
he cant think his mind of her...


孟婆汤, how nice, can he buys it?
Well, if he does, he wonldnt even drink it, because if he drinks it he will not thinking of her again...

Your Birthdate: September 1

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it. You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter! You are very prone to love - hate relationships. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Exams time that give you headache!

don't know since when i am not aiming for a pass anymore. Pass is not satisfying anymore and i am really concerned about my results now. I do have High demand, an average of GPA 5 or higher. Study is not easy and not really that tough just that you need a lot of patience and time. Fuck it. I hate exams and assignments are my type. However, i like the satisfaction thats why i am doing more than the old me.

I hate exams... almost all my mates finished their exams(at the time this blog was written). I hate it cause i canot have fun with them, i hate it because i love to procastinate, not what you think , but i prefer to chill out with friends as bars, pubs, maybe clubbing, well.

Damn it, i hate exams.
Pat: " what are you doing copying tips?
Me: " Hell yea, i want more than a pass".
Pat: " Good for you"
Me: "yea......" (wondering what is he trying to tell me).
Pat: " Well, Chia, look what i am hoding". (damn it, a can of beer in the evening)
Me: "alright mate....you got me".
Pat: "i certainly do".
Me: "Yea.. (in disappointment), yea, drink a can for me)".
Pat: " yea, dont worry Chia, i WILL drink 2". (that bastard grabbed a can from the fridge right after)
Me: "......, becareful of your stomamic"
pat: "am having fun and chiiling"

(left me speechless).

A: " hey, want to go out tonight". (asking purposely)
Me: "No man, got exams, still on".
A: "Oh, come on Chia, lets go".
Me: " Fuck it" (am not going out).
A: "oh, then... have fun studying, we gonna have fun"

(left me speechless).


Studying is so boring... learning the stuff that you know, but afraid that you canot vomit them out during exams.... FUck it.

Trsut me, i am gonna get smash and work like mad to get money after that. Beware, by the time i finishes my exam, i will have loads of monye to spend and you bastardws that been busying for holiday will without one penny. HOHOHO!!!!!

alright, gonna head back to study now, maybe grab an episode of southpark.
Quote: Screw you guys, i am going home (Eric Cartman).

Off i go, ciaoz.

Best Solution?

This thing was going in my head while i am on bed, just couldnt sleep because i have had a coffee before that. Thought caffien will never be a problem to me? Well, i guess is because my biological time is a little bit off, no other reason.

Well back to concern, what is the best solution for a problem? To use your own way? To adopt someoneleses method? or simply ignore the problem like it never happens?


I guess the best solution for everything is the flexibility. Plus the intellectual that is naturally born with you by presenting it in your own way. I've realised that i seldom speak up my mind when i am getting older everyday nowadays when dealing with friends although i dont really like their suggestions, sometimes the things they do, or even the way they act. Its so not me if compare to the old Jia. Getting pretty laid back ever since after although i dont really know what is the reason for these causes.

So i guess is to stand up and act like myself again like the old Jia. Soemtimes its not too bad to uppper up the level by using back some old methods as long it helps you up heh? I guess i just need some attitude to normalise(yeah thats the word!!!) myself.

Balancing

Finally got myself into a pace for study. Been drinking and partying all time since i came back here. Of course i still go for lectures and tutorials, meet some wonderful people as well. Not too bad, getting more and more use to the environment here.

Been busy for my midterm since last week, stayed in the lab till 6am for a few night already. Feel the satisfaction thou. Trying to keep myself balance, study and fun, thats life isnt it?

The midterm was pretty easy today as i took around 20-30 minutes to finish all 75 questions. Can afford to lose up to 20 question to get a D but i dont think i will lose more than that.

There are a few prospects here and i will see how and i will tell you if anything happens hey, LOL.

Pretty much nothing as tomoro i got no work and no class at all, good for me. Going to the lab for my Global security course tonight to finish them up.

All gone for good!

Yea, 5 years, yea, not too bad eh, how could i took such a long time. But anyway, its ended... One of my close friend said take it as a lesson. Infact, i rather not having this lesson. But what to do a PASSed is a pass, so just let it be.

Hopes were all vanished. Hell yeah but too bad, i am a man that ill never fall. U guys know me...i recovered pretty fast and myself was impressed. I can go after someone for such a long period but doing this and that. But i din regret hey, what a surprise. Emails, text, calls, time spent together.

Men learned their lesson, but i dont think this is a lesson but more like an experience to me, that i rather not to have. If i am not Yong Jia, i dont think i will recovered from it. No big deal hey.

Once i've put myself all into this. Everything, i dont even care about the things that i care the most, such as money, time. What a long process.

Anway, i've moved on, and there are targets all around, as these things will not bother me anymore in anyways. Maybe but not in the time period. Bravo Jia for having this for yourself. Once again Good Job!!!!!!


Hell yeah, i am going for gym starting for tomorro again and i think i will lose my big and turn them into 6 packs again :)

Adios!